Post by Old Guest on Apr 11, 2005 7:32:20 GMT 1
Guest-croam said:
old guest say more about what you did for work and what you meant by "sots in transition". I'm just curious. I like your posts by the way...I wish you would explain more though.Laku Noc!
Well, when I was talking about same thing before I was called "sot", and after all what is wrong with beeing sot, even if I am not one ...
Well, I worked very creative job (my education is artistical and technical) ... So, I created whole market for myself (from todays perspective I would say it was crazy and suicidal decision) ... But it payed off latter.
I had only two goals - to stay alive, and save my concience and dignity (simpler - stay normal).
To "skip" in arts and collect all "negative experiences" there instead collecting them in real life with real people (and risk to become - "animal with arguments") - saved me at that time, but made me "belonging nowhere" for the rest of my life. And if you own "third worlds" country passport - then it is more your destiny then part of "intelectual process" or personal quality.
I could call myself - lucky afterall, and keep my moth shot. But I don't believe that I am only person on the Earth who become "not acceptable" just because not sharing any political idea on "the market", and without any "backup" from anybody.
So, I don't trust anybody, especialy if they remind me on whole bunch of "helpers" I was surounded with. For all them all, I had only statistical value if I die, and for my own "helpers" if I could at least - loose my leg or something.
But I somehow refused to "behave", and still I can't make myself feeling guilty because of it, no metter how I am supposed to feel guilty (or at least - ashamed) just because I am Croat, I never did anything against low, and I am alive (with all parts of my body at place).